Livehappy77: April 2005

father and daughter at the zoo

enjoying the view

Hanna and momma on the train ride at the zoo

Hanna and Daddy

a precious moment

Our good friend Joan,baby girl,and myself at a b-ball game of hubby's-sometime 2004

Just a thought

Sometimes I wonder ...How we can promise to love one person,for the rest of our living days ,no matter what may happen...putting super human expectations upon ourselves,our partners,and our relationships,when we are still faulty humans when it starts to fade -we are disappointed ....Thinking of ourselves-or others as failures because we didn't "make it work".Would we give our child a pet(puppy,cat,bird...Whatever)tell them that from then on,they could only love that one animal,only pet them,talk with them,play with them....Even if that pet bit the child?Even if the animal attacked,snarled,threatened the child....Made them feel afraid to play with them,not knowing if they made a wrong move that the animal might jump upon him,or her,and choke the life out of them?Even if the animal wanted attention,but refused to play catch,roll over,or fufill any of it's "God given duties"?LOL...(You know what I am trying to say-right?-lol)Causing the child to feel insecure,afraid,lonely,even restricted it the child's natural desire for friendly interaction...no longer allowing the child to be the naturally fun loving,happy & playful person he or she truly is?
I know these may sound like frightening comparisons,but honestly alot of us are in relationships where we have been put unrealistic expectations....not just physically,but emotionally,mentally,and even sexually( not to limit it to these),upon each other,and ourselves....afraid that if we make the wrong move,say the wrong thing,voice our difference of opinion..(Heck!Just be ourselves!).we like that child with the threatening pet, will be pounced upon by that neglectful,and sometimes(God help us when this is true) abusive partner.So what do we do?hold tight to the leash that once connected us to a playful,and loving relationship...or cut the leash,and allow yourself(who knows...maybe the other one too),to no longer live under the drudgery of fear,neglect,and super-human(unattainable)expectations?
Just a thought.

again...a special moment between father and daughter

Daddy and Hanna sometime last year.

My little princess and me,4-2005

hi there-it's me-lol

Soaking in the rain

This rain
Falling from the air
Come now
Cleanse me
Make me fair

Beautify my soul
Wash me now
Please
Make me whole

With the purity of you
With a cleansing
That is true

Wash away these fleeting tears
Wash away these feeble fears

Cleanse me now
Make me new
Consume me now
Make me like you.

When ?

Sad songs on the radio
Singing now to me
Of forbidden love
Needing to be freed...

...Just like me.

For the one who knows

Each strand of hair
Each suttle tone
With Wispy bang
You make me moan
For need of you

Each fall and rise
Each feature fair
Gives accent to
That lovely hair
For I notice you

Your eyes
They draw me in
Calling out to me
Telling me you love me
Saying that we can be free
Free to explore
Eachother
More and more

Our minds all mingled
Interlaced
In this love
In this place
Of honest emotion
Having no other notion
Than to be ourselves
Happy and carefree
I loving you
You loving me.

Here is a pic' of my youngest sister and step-dad

Once again-you can see how I love to photograph my little girl,and she is so photogenic!

Hanna-"keeks"(cheeks)-she shows momma how smart AND adorable she is!

here is my princess-I shot this of her on Christams 2004-doesn't she look like an angel!?

two of my younger sisters,and Hanna-this was durring my sister's visit home from the Airforce.

The picture of you

To paint a picture of your face,
So easily I would do .
All dark would be the anger,
All painfully showing you.
The burden of your life with us
Would readily shine through

The faded colors,

reds and golds ,
would be our faded passion
once lit like a fire,
now of me

you've grown tired
Just as I am
now
with your flogging
of my spirit
you drag me down ...

But now I stand!

I refuse ,
To be undone ,
If I'm with you.

Today I speak !
Today I change!
And wonder what life
will arrange...
For today ,
For tomorrow,
For forever ...
will it mean sorrow?

another favorite

hubby and baby watch a little tele'

My mother -in-law with my little princess-Hanna.

Daddy and baby girl,reading a book together.

baby girl enjoying the fish

my drinking habits-lol

I have been drinking more coffee lately-I will always favor the Turkish kind best father -in-law turns the tiny cup over,and from the left over grounds he tells my fortune-it is pretty fun-lol.
I also drink tea,hot or cold...I really like Sobe'-cranberry/grapefruit flavor.